Hello, I am Amari

I love to splash in the sea like a kid. 

I love the mellow evening sunshine.

I love songs about love.

I love to work.

I love to play more. 

I love the beach, collecting sea shells and building sandcastles.

I love flowers and trees.

I love Matisse paintings.

I love animals, especially longhaired rabbits.

I love Baz Luhrman films:

“A life lived in fear is a life half-lived” (Strictly Ballroom) 

Since recovering from years bedbound and housebound, I find that I love to put my hands or feet in earth, to feel water on my skin, to watch fire burn, and to breathe the air… to be in nature and to know that I am of nature.

I enjoy making ceramics, painting and creating things.

I enjoy wandering about, listening to music.

I also enjoy living a slow and peaceful life full of joy, feeling the warm sand or wet grass under my feet.

Looking back, I realise my health issues started as a young child, and in those days it was called “growing pains” that woke me in the night screaming. If you would like to, you can click here to read the whole story of how I recovered.

I didn’t know that there was a condition called ME or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and I went to countless doctors and healers throughout my life and never found an answer.

I was always on a quest for something; when it wasn’t for something to help the pain or discomfort, it was a quest for love and connection and it was a quest for the meaning of life… the meaning of my life.

I was a filmmaker, an artist and photographer, a coach to actors and creatives, and then I became a mother. Through all of these “titles” or “labels” I was a workaholic, a perfectionist, a high achiever, and a people pleaser. And I never felt good enough. So I tried to do more, and then more, and then even more… but it never worked, I never achieved the goal of feeling good.

And now that I have fully regained my health (I am one hundred percent recovered, or as I like to say “150%”), I finally do feel good. Better than good. I find that joy comes naturally. It isn’t necessary to do anything to feel true happiness.

I am no longer a workaholic or an overachiever.

In fact I am pretty mellow.

I wander about.

I look at the sky.

I go in the sea.

I laugh a lot, sometimes for no reason.

I dance in the kitchen.

I am free.

In my work I specialise as a Mindbody Health Coach now. This is because, after my own long struggle to recover and to begin to really live, I found that I wanted to start helping others.

For so many years, I felt like I was in a dark place and I couldn’t even see HOW to begin to get out of it. So as I began to find my way out – into the light – step by step, I felt a strong call to turn back and hold out a hand for anyone who felt like I did.

So I have begun to share information for your recovery journey in the CFS Recovery Support articles here. These are gentle techniques to show you some introductory mindbody healing tools.

You can also join me for suggestions and tips on Instagram where I share short videos to help you and I share my story and where I go, so that you can see the world (even if you are in bed!)

To work as this type of coach is an honour and a privilege, and everyone needs mentors and guides. (Me included). 

Thank you for reading this.

I am glad that you are here.

Perhaps it is time for a rest now.

Or a reward.

Be gentle and kind to yourself.

You can always visit with me again later.

I am going to be right here, happy to see you.

If you would like to learn about mindbody healing for your own recovery, you can see this article which is an introduction to mindbody coaching.